Today I spent time with old family friends. We searched through a basket of photos taken over a twenty year time span. I came across many pictures of me as a girl and it was an odd feeling. I was instantly projected backward in time to the days the photos were taken. I could remember the settings, the people, and the season that each one represented. A few photos made me laugh. One in particular caught my eye because I look so ornery and mischievous in it! I remember that it was taken in my new school in Griffith, Indiana. I'm amazed by the openness and happiness I seem to be projecting because I have distinct memories of feeling scared and lonely in that school:
A few years later, I have a photo of me standing by a train station in Germany. I can remember feeling very insecure there...not exactly sure of myself, yet in the photo, I appear to be a confident hippie-chick:
One thing's for sure, the images we present are not always reflective of the way we feel inside. That's why I'm happy to read this verse:
"...the Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward, but the Lord looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7
It's good to know that the Lord sees my heart...and understands my needs before I ask. I don't have to present a perfect facade for Him to accept me just the way I am: mischievous girl or hippie-chick, He knows me inside out!